Absurd Moments of Ecstasy

Absurd moments of ecstasy

They pass away like a whisper and a sigh

Dark innuendo and twisted minds

Lead to orgasmic dance and tearful mime

Even these things fade away

Like rain in the night

Kisses in reverie

I see them still when I think

Of pleasure and pain

Black lingerie and the taste of moist skin

So hot and ready for excess

It etches a picture in my mind

That burns to ash until it flares again

Like involuntary laughter

Remembering

The futility of it all

And the overwhelming fragrance

Of roses in Spring.

Things That Need To Be Written

This love will never die

It speaks to me on moonlight beams

Like darkness it envelopes me in sleep

Though buried deep and cold in the earth

Lust is fresh like a forbidden rose

This love has been murdered one thousand times

Yet rises and falls like a heaving lover's breast

Waiting for the next moment of ecstasy

This love walks the night for all to behold

Then sleeps peacefully in its graveyard bed

All these things need to be written

But are obvious to the eye

Filled with hunger I see

What most refuse to understand

And I sleep well even through the storm

Despite the anger and envy

Knowing this love is safe and waiting

Eternally

Within my mind.

Hearts Collide

When I call your name

I wake up in a dream making love

Is it all in vain?

This falling until I wake up

I still feel your lips from a passionate kiss

As I twist and turn

Hearing a moan and a cry

Echo in my ears

"Never my love,"

You say

And I believe your words

Your voice so far away

While so near that I can almost

Hold you in my arms again

In a wicked fantasy moment of Sin

An ecstasy so fleeting and orgasmic

That I cannot resist whispering

Your name before I sleep

Awaiting a magic debauchery to come

As eyes close

And hearts collide

In the ether

Once more.

DEEP THOUGHTS WITH VLADVAMPIRELORD

Love is a dangerous motherfucker. What starts as love can quickly turn to pain or hatred, even murder. One can never know what lies in the heart of your lover until it is too late. Who would take such a chance? Who could watch love pass them by? Beware.

ANOTHER CRAZY LIGHT CHRONICLE

The crazy light was off, but turned on of its own accord and is on now. I know that makes no sense, but a lot of things in my life make no sense so if the crazy light in the off position wants to be on that is ok with me.

CRAZY LIGHT CHRONICLE

The "crazy light" was working normally until I was alone and decided to turn it off. It is a three way halogen bulb that is burned out on stage three so I clicked it four times so that it is in the OFF position. Within a few minutes it began to blink on and eventually stayed on for some time before it turned off. The internet says it is either a mechanical malfunction, a signal from the spirit world or excess power from a personal awakening manifesting itself into excess energy. Really.

A Rose

There is a rose that lives in my mind

For ten years onward it glows in the darkness of a dream

Beckoning still sweet and fragrant

Beautiful in its seductive call

A breeze whispering to my ears of everything and nothing

Love and loss

Passion and destruction

Thorns in hungering flesh

Fading into the light of day

Memories of ecstasy and pain

Some candles slowly burn, but never die

Haunting

Within the silence of eternity

REVISITING ONE OF MY NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCES

At age 17, I fell into a deep depression and a darkness that forced me to sleep all day and night amid traumatic life situations. My family tried to break me out of the depression by throwing my personal items in the garbage, telling me to "snap out of it" and even telling jokes to change my mood. Eventually, my Mother said she wished I would just kill myself as her energy was spent. So I decided that there was no more hope and swallowed three full bottles of major tranquilizers, essentually a month's supply in one sitting. I must have started taking the pills late in the evening or very early in the morning as that was a lot of pills to consume. I planned to say goodbye to my Mother in the morning, but when I hugged her I could not deal with the loss I believed I would be unleashing by my actions and told her what I had done. My Mother was going to rush me to the hospital, but I refused as I had heard stories from people who had overdosed of how they made them swallow charcoal and pumped their stomachs before a lengthy stay in the psychiatric ward. I was not interested in that so I suggested vomitting the pills by swallowing epsom salts. What I did not realize is that I had been absorbing these pills for hours and when I did throw up, mostly a granular liquid came out. I thought I had resolved things successfully, but I do not think I did so. I fell asleep and had a very vivid dream which I assumed was just a dream, but now believe was a near death experience. I had a rush of this unbelievable love emotion and then began asking questions about my future like will I have passionate love, will I get married, will I have a child etc. The last question I asked was "Will I ever be happy?" I woke up with tears flowing from my eyes not from sorrow, but joy from the amazing emotion from where I had been. All the questions I asked were answered in the affirmative and all except one has come to be. It is only now that I realize the magnitude of this experience as previously I had thought it a dream and tried to put everything behind me and block it out. Apparently, my later years will be long lived and filled with love and hapiness though the vision of it in my head does not seem to make much sense. But the answers I received in the "dream" were all like brief scenes in a movie and being so, the whole picture was not apparent. Time will tell.