I've never been too good at guessing others' motives. The person I least want to hear from is the one who calls me the most and he won't stop though I have stopped taking his calls. I don't believe LADY MORGANA loves me in the romantic or physical sense yet we have a partnership like two estranged singers who agree to do a concert even though the beauty of the songs have passed. LADY MORGANA checks my blog to see what I am thinking even though I state what's on my mind regularly. LADY MORGANA thinks I am involved in an outside relationship which she cares about when she is not caring about so my thoughts in my blog are subject to criticism and mockery even though LADY MORGANA does not appreciate my love of music, sense of humor or general interests. There may be others who view my Blog to see what I am up to but very few offer reactions or commentary so I have no idea what my blog attracts and if it is legitimate or just some perverse mind game.
I am not a bad person or someone with evil intent, I am an acquired taste known personally to few. I am not a monster, but I am an unlikeable person apparently and I can live with that. Despite this, I enjoy my own company. I may not be rich and successful, but I am a survivor. I enjoy the company of others, but I don't need it as a necessity or to define who I am.
If you do not like this Blog, feel like contributing or have any interest in me as a person you have my permission to fuck off immediately and go your own way. Do not ghost me any longer. I mean it. You can go now. I will be alright.
Really.
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