Goodbye

In the infernal end
The conflagration
The climactic
Anticlimactic
Conclusion
Of the cinematic disaster
That is your life
One thing
Surprised you
That you knew was coming
The be all
End all
The final moment
You knew
It was all over
Yet deep inside
Know will never end
There is just one thing left
Always
At the conclusion
Of the day
When everything falls down
In a smoldering heap
That
Is
Goodbye.

Goodbye my friend
Goodbye my lover
Goodbye to the promise
And the past
Just goodbye
No more
No less.

Silence
Distance
Thought
Contemplation
Returning to the beginning
Getting in touch with yourself
Who you really are
Building up your spirit
Your soul
Becoming whole
These are noble things
To strive for
In the end
After goodbye.

Immersing yourself
In solitude
Silence
Becoming once more at peace
Without the background noise
The need to dominate
Appease
Win in some power struggle
Game
These things
Are
Gone
After goodbye.

Refusing to blame
Or to
Become bitter
These things too
Are goals
To take away
After goodbye
And I hope
I do learn
From the train wreck
I emerged from
After
Saying
Goodbye.

But
In the end
There is just goodbye
And
Silence
The rest
You create
From the ashes
Running away
From
The screaming villagers
At your back
Like you are some
Frankenstein's monster
Or a vampire
Terrorizing the night
Discovered
And
Hounded
Hunter
And
Hunted.

There is just goodbye
As the B movie
That is your life
Stops
Goodbye
Quiet
And
Blackness
That is how it all
Ends
With
A
Goodbye
And the finality
Of it all
Is earth shattering.

Your world
Turns on its axis
And implodes
With a simple
Goodbye
As the picture fades
And you walk
Stumbling
In the dark
From the exit
Into the cold night air
Longing
For
A warm vehicle
Soft music
The sweet comfort
Of the mundane
The normal
The consistent
All these qualities
The events
Leading up to goodbye
Never gave you
That you recoiled
Against
Instead craving
Lusting
Hungering
For the novel
The theatrical
The sexy
But after goodbye
You see renewed beauty
Before your eyes
A sanctuary
Far away
Where you saw none
In the past.

The skeletons
You chose to bury
Rise
From the dead
Once more
Breathing again
Becoming flesh and blood
Stalking you
Seeming vibrant
Attractive
Alive.

In this special place
This alternate existence
You know
You will never hear
Goodbye
You deny that possibility
But
Never say
Never.

You see salvation
Where you once
Saw oppression
Confinement
Boredom
Perhaps
Looking at things
In a different light
Is this the true
Meaning of
Goodbye?

Or is
Goodbye
Really
All
About
Finding
Your
Way
Back
Home
Again?

Goodbye my friend
Goodbye my lover
Goodbye
I wish you the best
I think it
Is time
To find my way
Back home.